Are you following us on Instagram?
If so, you may have noticed that I have posted a few pictures lately about getting healthy, but I haven’t really elaborated on it. Well, now I am!
For the last 2 years since I had Brynn I have been meaning to get healthier, get back in shape, lose some weight. But I could never find the time.. or the motivation.. or I had a cold.. ooooor whatever other excuse there was. You name it, it got in the way. Before I knew it, so much time had passed and I was disappointed with what I saw in the mirror. Not only that, but I didn’t feel good. I have of course had the odd person make a comment about my size, but that has never affected me. I just let it slide like water off a duck’s back! After essentially an entire life (29 years) of being curvy at the very least (and sometimes just very heavy) I have heard it ALL. But it doesn’t affect me. If anything it has motivated me to prove people wrong – but I have not associated my size with my worth as a human being – not since I had Brynn.
Knowing that there’s people who love you no matter what size or shape you are is really amazing. However, I feel it can also cause you to get into a comfort zone that can negatively affect you in the long run. When Mike and I first started dating I was at the thinnest I had been in a long time. I was running often, and I loved it. I looked great. And then the usual issue that plagues many new relationships happened to me – we started going out a lot, and I gained weight. He loved me, so it didn’t matter. But slowly my cute new clothes that I had bought for my new body fit less and less well, and surely enough, got packed away and replaced by bigger sized clothes.
I’ve done this many, many times in my life. When I was in my very early 20’s I suffered from bulimia. I have, at almost every point in my life, been at odds with my body.
Well, I’m tired of it!
Our whole house (well, Brynn really doesn’t have a choice!) have decided it’s time to get our butts in gear and look and feel better. Just before my birthday (which was last Sunday), or about a week ago let’s say, I started tracking my calories with the My Fitness Pal app. Before that I always thought that just eating consciously was enough, but I really had no idea how insane portion sizes can be. Calorie counting has never been something I have loved, but until I learn proper portion sizes and substitutions for guilty pleasures, it is working for me. I have lost 4lbs so far this week. I also drink pretty much nothing but water (and smoothies).
I am feeling amazing. I feel happier, and healthier, and better overall. Visually I don’t notice a difference in anything aside from my skin, but that change has been happening for a while since I have so dramatically increased my water intake.
I am really excited about everything that is coming for us. There really isn’t much to speak to at this point since it’s all so new, but it’s a big focus of our daily lives now, so you can bet you’ll be seeing more of this on my blog and social media feeds. And if you’d like to be friends on My Fitness Pal, you can add me here!