Lately I find myself struggling to accept the fact that no matter how hard I try, the perfect family, home, and body is so far from attainable it isn’t even funny. I follow some incredible, inspiring, and talented women, and it is so hard sometimes to NOT feel like I must be doing something wrong since my life looks nothing like theirs. But this is just not the case.
Mom is Working
Brynn wakes up between 7 and 7:30, and I bring her to my bedroom and put on her shows, as she is still sleepy. She likes to lay in bed and watch them quietly. At 8 or so we have breakfast, get dressed, and get ready for the day. I pack up her bag for daycare, get myself ready, and we leave the house by 9:15 (if I am working at 10). I drop her off at daycare, then head to work. Currently my work hours vary, and so do my days AT work. I sell cell phones, so every day is different depending on who comes in and what they’re looking for.
Most of the time I work 10 – 4, so I go home, get changed, sit down for a minute or two, and then I start getting dinner ready. Then I head to get Brynn at about 5:15. Mike gets home between 5:30 and 6. We eat dinner, and by the time that is done and the plates are put in the dishwasher, it’s about or almost 7. We play with Brynn until bath time, she has some milk, and we get her into her pajamas. Once she is done her milk, she gets her teeth brushed, and then she usually likes to do it herself a little bit, too. We currently don’t read to her before bed because it gets her worked up. She doesn’t like to just sit and listen nicely to a story, she prefers to turn the pages and tell the story herself, so we read during the day instead. She is very good at going to bed on her own.
Once Brynn is asleep Mike and I are able to do whatever we want, but we are usually both pretty exhausted. If I have any energy, I will blog or do some crafts. Usually we just tidy the living room/kitchen and get into bed to watch TV and go on our phones, and sometimes it feels MAGICAL. Nothing like getting into bed after a long day.
Mom is Home
Brynn still wakes up between 7 and 7:30 on my days off, and we still come downstairs and watch her shows. The only difference is that we will play after watching some shows, and sometimes don’t have breakfast until 9. After breakfast we don’t always get dressed right away – sometimes we will hang out in our pjs and listen to music and play and read. Then we have lunch, and play outside or go to the park. At around 1:30 or 2 Brynn will have some milk and go down for her nap. Sometimes I will be tired and I will nap, too. Sometimes I will get some work done instead, or blog. At around 4 I start getting dinner ready, and then get Brynn up. She will play while I cook, and help me do some tidying up. Then Mike gets home and our evenings look the same as they do when I go to work all day.
When I work on the weekends I’m not 100% sure what Mike and Brynn get up to, to be honest. I work a short shift and come home and make dinner like I would any other day. Sometimes Mike will send me pictures. All I know for sure is that I miss them every second that I am away, and I wish I was home with them.
I do enjoy my job. I love to make people happy and I love working with people, plus everyone I work with is awesome. I only sometimes wish I didn’t work weekends because Mike doesn’t, and I love to be with my family.
Sometimes it’s hard for me because I struggle with mild agoraphobia, and I am a huge homebody. Thankfully we have an amazing backyard with lots to explore and do. I wish I had more time where I didn’t feel exhausted so that I could go for a run a few times a week. I’m still working at figuring all of that out. Any tips for scheduling workouts? Makeup time? Or, really any “me time” at all? Nearly 2 years into being a mom and I still don’t have it figured out! Do your days look similar to ours? Leave me a comment! I’d love to hear about your days.